rest in peace my friend

I got an e-mail today from my mom to let me know one of my best friends from childhood passed away, and that the obit was in the paper. At first, my stomach sank. It is not possible I thought - as I typed as quickly as my fingers would allow to get to the paper's website. She was only 35! Guilt immediately consumed me. I had not spoken to her in years. We had a disagreement in high school and (because we are equally stubburn)we never made up. Reading the obit evoked a flood of emotion I did not expect. I began to sob with my boys in the room. They have never seen me like that, so I was anxious to regain my composure. Once I dried myself off, I searched everywhere to find my half of our Best Friends necklace. It was not where I thought it was, which lead to an hour long frantic sifting through every container and box in hope of finding the "safe place" I put it. No luck. Just add that to my list of regrets.

My old friend Jenny was an amazing person. I am a fool for not being a better friend and now she will never know how sorry I am.

So, here I am, sending my apology out to the great void we know as the internet. Rest in peace my dear friend. I love you.